I also realized that I was feeling anxious about posting out of a sense of obligation, that I was preparing to feel guilty if I didn't get a certain kind of post up. I mean, I have at least ten of them in my head, and I "should" have written them ages ago. I'm inclined to chastise myself because, after all, what else have I been doing. And then I realize that despite being almost retired, I've been damn busy, even if so much of the busy-ness has been pleasurable.
And, of course, eventually I realized that every one of you would tell me that it's ridiculous to feel guilty about not getting a post up every two or three days, and that it's even more ridiculous to get those posts up but then beat myself up because they're not the posts I "should" have written.